108 postrations

 Today we had a beautiful session of 108 postrations at yoga class. It was taught by Alex Macias. Thanks amigo. It really helped me sort some things out. I know we cannot see the world in black and white, but in some way I contribute more to the light than to the darkness though my light is not still strong enough. I also went with my friend Laura and Diana to eat gorditas. at the morelos.

Manipulating behaviours

 when dating, identify red flags and avoid them. It is also important to note that you attract what you are.  

laughing on purpose out of nothing to make you ask her

A recount of my day 28.12.2023

 Today , even if I did not have to, I got up to make her coffee. She never wakes up when I have to wake up early , I wonder if it is ok to do so when there is not reciprocity, I took her to the bus which now because of shut down comes at 610. It was really cold today. 

when I copied this fragment and ask bard about it, it told me this: 

I understand your situation can feel complex and bring up mixed emotions. It's natural to wonder about reciprocity and fairness when you consistently go out of your way for someone who might not do the same for you. Here are some thoughts that might be helpful:

1. Appreciate your own kindness: Recognize and appreciate the kind and caring actions you've taken, regardless of reciprocity. Making someone's day by making their coffee or braving the cold to take them to the bus showcases your thoughtfulness and generosity.

2. Consider your motivations: Reflect on why you do these things. Is it purely out of expectation of reciprocation, or is it driven by genuine affection, care, or simply wanting to make her happy? Understanding your own motivations can help you manage your expectations and avoid potential disappointment.

3. Communication is key: If you're feeling unappreciated or imbalanced, consider open and honest communication. Gently expressing your feelings and needs can open up a dialogue about expectations and how you can both support each other in a way that feels good for everyone.

4. Focus on healthy boundaries: It's okay to set boundaries and prioritize your own well-being. While it's admirable to be kind, make sure you're not neglecting your own needs or sacrificing your comfort for someone who might not appreciate it fully.

5. Remember, actions speak louder than words: If someone consistently shows appreciation through their actions, even if they don't express it verbally, that can be valuable too. Observe how she responds to your kindness, not just in words, but also in her own actions and efforts.

Ultimately, the decision of whether or not to continue these actions lies with you. There's no right or wrong answer, and what's most important is that you feel comfortable and at peace with your choices. Trust your intuition and do what feels right for you.

I hope this gives you some perspective and helps you navigate this situation in a way that feels authentic and fulfilling for you. Remember, you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect, just as you treat others.

It frightens me a little.

also I had the time to fix a cell phone I was meaning to fix, from long time ago.

the nexus 6, it is a great cell phone

I spent the morning in bed after I took her to the bus stop.

I spent the day watching the movies I love.

I learnt about new music I like from those movies.

E.g Elizabethtown.

On how to take advantage of time that otherwise would be a waste of time. ( E.g driving )

 I was kind of mad today 

I was mad because I wasted around two hours of my time driving. 

for some people it would not be a waste of time, probably 

but for me it is. I could be doing something else instead of driving

Now I am on vacation I realize of the importance and how short time is. 

This is part of the improvement I want to do for my quality of life. 

well of course I first need to be financially stable. 

also I want to acquire other abilities such as programming, because it will help me save time. 

and make more time and have more time to do the things I want to do. 

So I was thinking that maybe I can practice french conjugation in my head while I drive.

People sometimes gets mad at me because I am looking at the cell phone and not really paying attention to them. 

so if I do something valuable such as reviewing contents in my head, they will not tell if I am really paying attention or not . 

that is what I want to do . 

As I have always said time is the most important asset

because time is life. 

how to make the most out of each situation including negative ones how to react in a positive way

how to make the most of each encounter